Our sole power: love

Monday, December 8, 2014

I have always thought the advice in Baz Luhrman's "sunscreen" song is smart.  I have frequently found myself attaching lines from the song to events in my life.  Too many times the line in my head has been: "Don't worry about the future.  Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum.  The real problems in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday."  And so it was with A's cancer diagnosis.  And again this morning when I learned my 33-year-old cousin passed away unexpectedly as a result of a pulmonary embolism.

She leaves behind her husband and four-year-old son.

Last week, they were in the normal world, visiting the aquarium, trying to get their foster puppies adopted, buying Christmas presents.  This week, they are in the world of facebook posts and online fundraisers (https://www.giveforward.com/fundraiser/98v6/in-honor-of-juliane-jules-lovelady) and we are all staring at the pictures, transfixed by J's blonde hair and blue eyes in the picture of her and her adorable son in the waves against the blue sky.  Her carefree smile.  Her carefree son.

The world spins in ways I don't understand.  Sometimes, while deciding amongst the directions it can take, the world spins entirely off its axis and you are left in a world that is unrecognizable.  There really isn't a silver lining, but if there were one, it would be feeling loved and embraced by other human beings who inhabit this planet.  Our sole power is in pouring out love.  I am continually reminded to try to live in a way where I pour and pour until it hurts.

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